I was so wrapped up in this whole IVF cycle and the shock of pregnancy that I almost missed Mother's Day. Mom's Day is a mixed bag for me and MM. His mom died 3 1/2 years ago, so it's always a little sad. We still have his grandma and aunts, my mom and grandmas, but we both feel the loss of his mom. These "special" days bring it out.
I remember last year when we were trying to get pregnant. I had fantasies of taking a HPT on Mother's Day and getting the plus sign so I could tell MM we were going to be parents. It didn't happen that way of course.
Now, a year later I got my positive result, but I still don't feel like I have license to celebrate the day for myself. I don't look pregnant, I don't feel pregnant, but I am in fact pregnant (I took a HPT a few days ago just to confirm that the betas were actually mine). Maybe the ultrasound on Thursday will make me feel a little more pregnant. I'm looking forward to seeing something other than an empty uterus and hyper-stimulated ovaries.
Next year I hope to be celebrating this day with a 5 month old (or two). Happy Mother's Day.
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Mom to a healthy and spirited boy thanks to a successful round of IVF. Since then I've had two first trimester losses. The journey continues...
About Me
- CC
- California, United States
- MM and I have been married for 11 years. We were blissfully childless for 6 of those years, then it started to get painful. In our late 20's, we thought we were too young for this sort of thing. We soon learned that infertility is not a respecter of age or good living. After a year and a half of trying (with lots of "help"), and a somewhat challenging pregnancy (preterm labor, gestational diabetes, etc.) we had our son at home December 28, 2008 at term. After so many years of waiting and wondering, I was finally a mom. Now we want to expand our family again. So far it isn't going the way I had hoped.
A "Brief" History
- May 2011: Loss at 6 weeks gestation
- November 2010: Loss at 9 weeks gestation
- December 28 2008: Jonas is Born! 6 lb 12 oz.
- May 15 2008: 6w US-singleton
- April 2008: IVF #1-BFP!!
- February 2008: Medicated IUI #4-BFN
- January 2008: Medicated IUI #3-BFN
- December 2007: New RE.
- September-December 2007: No meds. Just us. Lots of sex. No babies.
- September 2007: Re-started acupuncture.
- August 2007: Medicated IUI #2-BFN
- August 2007: HSG shows potentially obstructed left fallopian tube.
- July 2007: Clomid with timed intercourse-BFN
- June 2007: Medicated IUI #1-BFN
- May 2007: First appt with RE. Quit acupuncture.
- March 2007: Started acupuncture.
- December 2006: Made an appointment with an RE, then canceled it. Maybe FSH isn't all that important.
- November 2006: Promptly stopped any form of contraception and hoped for the best.
- October 2006: 3 Day FSH 10.7. Ouch. Wasn't ready for that.
- September 2006: Started obsessing about my cycles after an RE gave a lunch CME at work. Noticed my cycles seemed to be getting shorter. Wondered if we should start trying.
- June 2003: Laparoscopy and HSG. Diagnosed with mild endometriosis. Both tubes were patent, so nothing to worry about fertility wise (or so we were told).
1 comment:
Happy Mother's Day! I'm not sure if you really "feel" pregnant until a. the hormones kick in and you're hanging your head in the porcelin throne or b. you start feeling the baby kick- At least for me at least. - When the baby is moving around- it's pretty hard to forget- and amazing too! You will love your ultrasound! It's so amazing actually seeing something moving/growing inside of you. - Love you- Mo
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