Zero to Four

I just returned from a three-day introduction to life with quads. Two girlfriends from nursing school and I went to Texas to hang out with our friend Suzanne and her four bundles of joy.

I know that multiple births is a risk with infertility treatments, but I really just want one at a time. Which I guess is what most if not all parents of multiples wanted, but fate had a different idea so they adjust their expectations and boldly go forward (Suz and Joe, you're truly amazing).

I always wonder what it will be like when I spend time with newborns, what kind of feelings will come up. Honestly, I loved every minute of it. I feel hopeful about our next step with the IVF, and have been able to avoid the sadness and resentment that has come up in the past.

Holding those babies for hours and hours had a wonderful and calming effect on me I think. I am confident that somehow, someday, I will be a mom. That feels good.